falsafee ne apane naujavaan dost se kaha… bila soche-samajhe taareekee mein mat koodo. naujavaan hansa… bola… mohabbat vo taareekee hai jisamen koodate vaqt samajh aur soch kee quvvaten salb ho jaatee hain aur fahm-o-firaasat javaab de jaate hain.
kaanjalee
bhaee aanand!
tum maze mein ho, ye jaan kar khushee huee. lekin agar tumhen maayoosee na ho to arz karun ki idhar bhee kuchh buree basar nahin ho rahee. agar shimala par andr devata kee nazar-e-iltifaat hai to do-aaba ko bhee isane faraamosh nahin kiya aur agar yaqeen karo to kahoon ki aajakal to do-aaba bhee sach-much shimala aur kashmeer ban raha hai. har doosare teesare baarish ho jaatee hai. kaif-aavar hava, donon haathon se saagar landhaatee hai. dekhane mein nasha, chhoone mein nasha, soonghane mein nasha. aankh, naak, kaan, rag-rag mein nashe kee lahar daud jaatee hai. saikal uthaate hain aur das kos kee manzil maar kar yahaan kaanjalee ke kinaare aa jaate hain. tairane ke libaas zeb-tan karake us gahare neele paanee mein kood padate hain. oopar boonda-baandee hotee hai aur neeche, bahut neeche, baandh ka paanee, halkee-halkee aavaaz mein girata hai. hava patton mein sarasar karatee hai aur kuchh ajeeb nagmon se fiza maamoor ho jaatee hai.
aaj bhee aisa khyaal tha ki baarish hogee. raat hee se aasamaan par baadalon ne apanee saltanat qaayam kar lee thee, aur thandee-thandee havaon ke us aaraam dene vaale raaj mein kaanjalee na pahunchana, mere khyaal mein himaaqat thee, isalie main utha. kaam-vaam mainne sab kal ke lie utha diya. jaakar brjoo aur ramesh ko taiyaar kiya aur phir jaate-jaate zabaradastee indranaath ko bhee saath le liya. usake yahaan usake vatan ke ek do bangaalee dost aae hue the. lekin mere isaraar par vo chal pada. dar-asl aanand, indranaath na ho to sair ka ya pikanik ka lutf hee nahin aata.
us indranaath se kuchh bachate rahana. tumane ye kya likh diya aanand. jab tumhaaree is baat ko yaad karata hoon to be-ikhtiyaar hansee aa jaatee hai. tumane indranaath ko dekha nahin. varna kabhee aisa na likhate, bangaaliyon mein jo ek tarah ka soobaee jazba hota hai. vo isamen naam ko nahin. khulee tabiyat ka, aazaad-khyaal, hansamukh naujavaan hai, meree hee umr ka hoga, patala sa jism, lambe-lambe baal aur teekhe-teekhe naqsh. pahalee nazar mein dekhane vaale ko shak guzarata hai, jaise ye koee sinema ka aiktar hoga. ya ba-za’ma-e-khud aiktar bane phirane vaale naujavaanon mein se hoga, lekin paas baithane par maaloom hota hai ki vo kis ilm ka maalik hai. aanand, usakee maaloomaat kee duniya nihaayat vasee hai. shaayad hee koee aisa mauzoo hoga jis par vo sair haasil-e-bahas na kar sakata ho. phir in tamaam baaton ke baavajood takabbur ka usamen naam tak nahin, jaise saada-lohee aur haleemee kee ek chaadar mein vo lipata rahata hai aur phir vatan-parastee ka jazba usamen koot-koot kar bhara hua hai. main to sach-much usaka garveeda hua ja raha hoon. shimale to mein kya aaoonga. barasaat ke dinon mein shimale ko kaanjalee se nisbat? ghane-ghane aam aur jaamun ke darakht, nanhee-nanhee boonden, gahara neela paanee, aur phir koyal kee lambee kook, main to tumase kahoonga ki agar aa sako to chand dinon ke lie tum hee udhar aa jao.
raghoo
(2)
gaadee ka ek kamara
aanand!
khat mein ek do din der ho jaane kee koee khaas vajah nahin, dafatan hee meree salaah kalakatta jaane kee ho gaee hai. baat ye hai ki kisee zarooree kaam se achaanak indranaath kalakatte ja raha hai. mujhe yahaan kaam to aaj kal hai nahin. kolej band hai aur theesis kee taraf tabiyat bilkul nahin lagatee isalie socha kalakatte hee chala jae, dar-asl indranaath kee gair maujoodagee mein ye din kis tarah kat sakenge. ye main nahin soch saka. usakee hastee kuchh gair-maamoolee taur par meree hastee par chhaatee gaee hai. mere khyaalaat, meree aadaten, mere kaam, ab mere nahin rahe. vo vaise hee banate gae hain, jaise indranaath chaahata raha hai. doosare ke khyaalaat, aur aadaton ko badal dene ka kuchh aisa hee gun use yaad hai aur ab samajh lo, main kalakatte ja raha hoon.
ek baat kahoon, tumhaaree bahut pahale kee likhee huee baat yaad aa jaatee hai, is indranaath se zara bachate rahana. aur main sochata hoon. kya mujhe bachana chaahie? kabhee-kabhee maaloom hota hai ki isaka mujh par yoon chha jaana achchha nahin. jaise vo mujhe kisee gahare gaar mein lie jaata hai, lekin doosare lamhe ye sab vaham maaloom hota hai. mere khyaalaat aage se sulajhe hue hain, meree aadaten pahale se sudharee huee hain, aur meree zindagee ka ab koee nasab-ul-ain maaloom hota hai. lekin… par chhodo. filahaal to kalakatte ja raha hoon. baaqee kalakatte jaakar.
raghoo
(3)
kalakatta
aanand!
raat kitanee hee bait chukee hai. lekin mujhe bilkul neend nahin. dil mein ek haijaan sa barapa hai. ek aag see lagee huee hai aur jee chaahata hai is aag kee lipaton ko sab taraf phaila doon taaki zulm aur jaur kee quvvaten palak jhapakate jal-bhun kar raakh ho jaen. tum shaayad hairaan hoge ki main aaj ye sab kya bak raha hoon? lekin aanand tum kya jaano ki mere khyaalaat mein inqalaab barapa ho chuka hai. mera khyaal tha ki main kalakatte se achchhee tarah vaaqif hoon. kalakatta mere lie naya nahin. beesiyon dafa angrezee saltanat ke is doosare bade shahar mein aaya hoon. lekin indranaath ne is kalakatte mein jo cheezen dikhaeen un ka khvaab mein bhee khyaal na tha.
aaj mainne vo khufiya tah-khaane dekhe hain jahaan plaasee kee ladaee mein haar kar navaab siraaj-ud-daula kuchh dinon ke lie aa chhipe the. taareekh mein unaka zikr nahin, lekin dekhane par yahee maaloom hota jaise navaab abhee-abhee yahaan se gae hain. kalakatta ke navaah ke toote-phoote makaan mein indranaath ke ek dost rahate hain. vo kyon vahaan rahate hain. ye main nahin jaanata, shaayad gareeb hain, aur kalakatta ke kiraaya ka baar nahin utha sakate. ham unase mulaaqaat karane gae, tabhee baaton-baaton mein indranaath ne un tah-khaanon ka zikr kiya aur jab mainne isaraar kiya to vo mujhe vahaan le gaya.
ek toota-phoota sa daalaan tha. usamen se hote hue ek-do gulaam gardishon ko tai karake ham ek taareek kamare mein pahunche. indranaath ke dost ka naam mukarajee hai. unhonne ek daravaaza khola aur ham seedhiyaan utar kar tah-khaane mein ja pahunche. us jagah ghup andhera tha. haath ko haath sujhaee na deta tha. mera dil dhak-dhak karane laga. mujhe indranaath par itana hee etimaad tha jitana apanee hastee par. lekin na jaane kyon, dil jaise dhansa ja raha tha. taareekee mein mukarajee ne ek khataka sa dabaaya. saamane kee deevaar mein ek daravaaza khul gaya aur ek lambee gailaree nazar aaee. jisake doosare sire se raushanee kee shuaen usake nisf hisse ko raushan kar rahee theen. gailaree se guzar kar ham tah-khaane mein pahunche. ye tah-khaana kaafee raushan tha aur hava bhee yahaan jaane kahaan se aa rahee thee. mainne poochha to indranaath ne kaha, iska bhee intizaam hai.
farsh par desee qism ke gaaleeche bichhe hue the aur puraana farneechar rakha tha, jo bahut kuchh khasta aur boseeda ho gaya tha. deevaaron par puraane qism ke naqsh-o-nigaar the. jab mainne poochha to indranaath ne bataaya ki ye shaahee tah-khaane hain. ye unamen se pahala hai, abhee doosare mein jaenge. navaab siraaj-ud-daula ne apanee pareshaan zindagee ke kuchh ayyaam yaheen basar kie the. kamare mein chaaron taraf usee zamaane kee tasveeren lagee huee theen, jab klaiv kee hikmat- e-amalee aur chaalaakee aur meer jaafar aur amaachand kee gaddaaree ne hindustaan ke paanv mein pahalee bedee daal dee thee. ek tasveer mein amaachand klaiv se saaz-baaz kar raha tha. doosaree mein fareb mujassam klaiv ameer-ul-bahr vaatasan se jaalee muaahida par dastakhat karaane ke lie isaraar kar raha tha, jisamen amaachand ko teen laakh roopaya dene kee koee shart na thee.
phir kuchh aur tasaaveer plaasee ke maidaan-e-jang, navaab kee shikast aur meer jaafar kee gaddee-nasheenee kee lagee huee theen. lekin unamen ek tasveer aisee thee jisane meree tavajjo khaas taur par apanee taraf mabazool kar lee. ye thee ek paagal kee tasveer. deevaana sar aur paanv se bilkul barahana tha. sar ke baal bikhare hue the. daadhee badh kar khaufanaak ho rahee thee aur us par gard padee huee thee. jism par jagah-jagah se khoon nikal raha tha, jo usane deevaanagee ke aalam mein kharonch-kharonch kar nikaal liya tha. tasveer ke neeche likha hua tha, qaum-farosh amaachand.
doosra tah-khaana bhee usee tarah ka tha. usmen bhee kuchh tasaaveer theen, lekin pahale se ziyaada dardanaak… pahalee tasveer ek shakhs kee thee, jo sardee mein sikud gaya tha. usake bachche ro rahe the. usakee beevee aansoo baha rahee thee aur mausam surama kee hava ke tund jhonkon ne use roz-roz ke azaab se najaat dila dee thee. tasveer ka unavaan tha, hamaara mazadoor. doosaree tasveer ek shakhs kee thee, jo sookh kar kaanta ho gaya tha. use kaee tarah kee balaen chimatee huee theen, jo usaka khoon choos rahee theen. ye tha, hamaara kisaan. teesaree tasveer ek soot-boot mein malaboos naujavaan kee thee jo ek saahab ke dar par jabeen saee kar raha tha. neeche likha tha, hamaare baaboo.
tah-khaane to dekh aaya aanand, lekin us vaqt se hee dil-o-dimaag mein ek halachal machee huee hai, jis mulk kee haalat itanee digar-goon ho, usake baashinde sukh kee neend kaise so sakate hain? vo tamaam manaazir aanand, meree nigaahon ke saamane ghoom-ghoom jaate hain aur in sabase badh kar us deevaane kee tasveer!
raghoo
(4)
havaalaat
aanand
kya socha tha aur kya ho gaya. sab iraadon aur aarazooon par os pad gaee aur tumhaara dost in sangadil sipaahiyon ke daramiyaan phansa. tumhen kya likhoon ki is lambe arse mein kin-kin museebaton se guzara hoon. tum baja taur par naalaan ho ki mainne tumhaare ek bhee khat ka javaab nahin diya. lekin dost jab aadamee ke hosh-o-havaas usake apane hosh-o-havaas na hon, jab na vo apane dimaag se sochata ho, na kaam karata ho. tab usase shikaayat hee kya. aaj havaalaat kee taareek kotharee mein tumhaaree ek baat mujhe rah-rah kar yaad aatee hai, bas indranaath se zara bachate rahana. us vaqt main us par hans diya tha lekin aaj sochata hoon to khyaal aata hai ki agar main tumhaaree is baat par kaan deta to is museebat mein na phansata.
mujhe giraftaaree ka ya mahaboosee kaaranj nahin. ek inqalaab pasand giroh ke kisee membar ko (kyonki main inqilaab-pasand giroh mein shaamil ho gaya tha) jel to kya phaansee tak ke lie taiyaar rahana chaahie. ranj hai to is baat ka ki shaayad mere saath dhoka kiya gaya hai. indranaath inqilaab-pasandon kee anjuman ka saragana tha. ye anjuman saare bangaal mein phailee huee thee. panjaab mein bhee shaayad vo anjuman hee ke kisee kaam ke lie pahuncha tha. meree bad-bakhtee ki main isakee khoobiyon ka maddaah ho gaya aur usake saath chala aaya. usake saath rah kar anjuman mein shaamil na hona naamumkin see baat thee. mainne tumhen tah-khaanon ke mutaalliq ek khat likha tha. isase shaayad tumhen ehasaas ho gaya hoga ki kis tarah aadamee ke khyaalaat badal jaate hain aur use maaloom bhee nahin hota. hamaaree anjuman saare bangaal mein phailee huee thee aur mashahoor-mashahoor shaharon aur qasbon mein usake marakaz the. jangalon aur pahaadon mein usake khufiya maqaam the. lekin usakee khabar indranaath aur chand doosare sar-karda membaron ke siva kisee ko bhee na thee. aksar ko to ye bhee ilm na tha ki anjuman mein kaun-kaun membar hain.
use kaamayaabee se chalaane ke lie hamen roopay kee zaroorat padee. chunaanche salaah huee ki anjuman ke pahaadee maqaam ke nazadeek qasbe ke sarakaaree baink mein daaka daala jae. tajveez ke mutaabiq ham chhah ashkhaas muqarrara vaqt par baink ke nazadeek pahunch gae. shaam ka vaqt tha. baink ke klark aahista-aahista chale gae the. khazaanchee hisaab kee padataal kar raha tha. us vaqt hamane mauqa ko ganeemat jaan kar sipaahee par hamala karake use behosh kar diya. phir khazaanchee ko pistaul dikhaakar noton ke bandal aur roopon kee thailee utha lae. indranaath ke supurd motar laane ka kaam tha. ain vaqt par kaar pahunch gaee. roopaya rakha aur hava ho gae.
pandrah bees meenat tak andha-dhund motar chala kee. lekin hamen maaloom ho gaya ki hamaara taaaqub ho raha hai. donon motaren pooree raftaar se chal rahee theen. motar kee aavaaz ke saath hamaare dil dhadak rahe the. indranaath motar ko khufiya maqaam kee taraf le chala. taqareeban do ghanta tak motar chalatee rahee. ab ham chadhaee par the. sadak kaee jagah se mudatee thee. maaloom hota tha ki abhee gire aur gaharee khad mein gum ho gae. lekin indranaath ko motar chalaane mein kamaal haasil tha. ham motar main baithe ja rahe the. lekin aisa maaloom hota tha jaise jhoola jhool rahe hain. abhee jo sadak oopar sar par nazar aatee, doosare lamhe neeche khad mein dikhaee detee. pahaadee darakht bijalee kee see surat se guzare ja rahe the. us vaqt aisa maaloom hota tha jaise indranaath koee devata ho ya gair-maamoolee insaan. use motar chalaane mein itana hee kamaal haasil tha jitana siyaasiyaat aur maaashiyaat mein.
lekin doosaree kaar ne hamaara taaaqub na chhoda. indranaath kee taraf dekha to jaise patthar ke but kee tarah baitha kaar chalae ja raha tha. saamane ghaatee thee. indranaath ne motar ko bulandee par chalaana shuroo kiya. lekin abhee hamane chauthaee hissa bhee tay na kiya tha ki taayar ek aavaaz ke saath phat gaya aur motar kee raftaar ruk gaee. indranaath ne chhalaang laga dee. mukarajee ne noton ke bandal aur thailiyaan usakee taraf phailaen. lekin isase pahale ka hamamen se koee utarane kee koshish karata, motar peechhe ko chalana shuroo ho gaee. dhalavaan kaafee thee. ek dhamaaka hua aur motar ruk gaee. taaaqub karane vaalon kee motar ke saath hamaaree motar takara gaee thee. lekin ultee nahin, kyonki pulis vaalon ne motar chadhaee ke shuroo hee mein rok dee thee.
hamaare havaas ud gae the. ham ne bhaagane kee koshish kee lekin pulis ne goliyaan chalaanee shuroo kar deen. hamane bhee pistaul nikaale. donon taraf se goliyaan chalane lageen. pulis ke do sipaahee zakhmee hue. hamaara ek rafeeq maara gaya. meree taang mein golee lagee. pulis ne sabako giraftaar kar liya. haan mukarajee bhaag gae. hamaaree motar kee talaashee lee gaee lekin kuchh baraamad na hua aur aaj mujhe maaloom hua hai ki indranaath aur mukarajee ne ye sab saazish inqilaab-pasand naujavaanon ko phansaane ke lie kee thee.
jel ke inspector durga daas benarjee mere bade dost hain. kalakatta mein kaee baar mein unake yahaan thahara hoon. mujh par bade meharabaan hain. unakee vasaatat se hee mujhe ye sab pata chala hai. bangaal mein inqilaab-pasandon kee badhatee huee sar-garmiyon ko rokane ke lie hee sarakaar ne indranaath aur mukarajee ko muqarrar kiya tha. ab sochata hoon aanand, to sab kuchh theek hee maaloom hota hai. kabhee khyaal karata hoon ki durga daas kaheen galat na kahate hon. baharahaal jismaanee takaleef ke alaava mein kis zahanee takaleef mein mubtila hon. tum isaka andaaz kar sakate ho. sochata hoon, mainne indranaath ka kya bigaada tha ki is parades mein mujhe la phansaaya lekin kisee ne kaha hai na ki saada-lauhee ke khoon par hee riyaakaaree palatee hai.
raghoo
p.s
khat durga daas hee kee vajah se tumhen pahunch raha hai nahin to shaayad tum jaanate bhee nahin aur main shaayad kaale paanee pahunch jaata.
(5)
central jel
aanand
main sultaanee gavaah ban gaya. agarache mujhe kuchh bahut kahana nahin pada. phir bhee mere bayaan kee vajah se dono javaanon ko kaale paanee kee saza ho gaee. tum shaayad mujhe buzadil aur darapok khyaal karo, lekin sach jaanana aanand mein kisee dar ya khauf kee vajah se sultaanee gavaah nahin bana. balki mere is faisale kee tah mein intiqaam ka vo jazba kaam karata hai, jo din raat mere tan badan ko jalaaya karata hai. main abhee tak zer-e-hiraasat hoon. lekin kuchh din tak aazaad ho jaoonga aur main qasam khaakar kahata hoon aanand. main indranaath ka pata lagaoonga aur isase poora-poora badala loonga.
apnee saada-lauhee par mujhe hansee aatee hai. indranaath ko main farishta samajhata tha. lekin mujhe maaloom ho gaya, vo shaitaan tha. muqadama kee samaat khatm ho gaee. lekin abhee tak na indranaath ka pata hai aur na mukarajee ka. pata lagata bhee kaise? vo donon to kaheen doosaree saazish khadee kar rahe honge. mujhe durga daas ne sab kuchh bata diya hai. pulis ne unhen mafaroor qaraar de diya hai aur pablik kee aankhon mein dhool jhonkane ke lie unako giraftaar karaane mein imadaad karane vaale ko inaam dene ka ailaan kar diya hai. lekin mujhe sab haqeeqat ka ilm hai aur iseelie main sultaanee gavaah bana. giraftaar shuda rafeeq to saza paate hee, lekin indranaath se badala lene ke lie kaun rahata? raghoo
(6)
ek door-uftaada gaanv
aanand!
ek muddat ke baad tumhen khat likh raha hoon. sochata tha ab kuchh na likhoonga aur is tanha muqaam mein, daag-e-naakaamee seene par lie chup-chaap is duniya se guzar jaoonga. lekin shaayad jab tak tumhen likh na loonga mujhe maut na aaegee. aanand mujhe dhoka hua. sachamuch bahut bada dhoka hua. bahut der huee tah-khaane mein qaum-farosh amaachand kee tasveer dekhee thee. rah-rah kar vo aaj-kal mere saamane phir jaaya karatee hai aur main mahasoos kiya karata hoon ki main paagal ho jaoonga lekin shaayad us vaqt tak main zinda na rahoonga.
jel se aazaad hone ke baad aanand, main indranaath kee talaash mein munhamik ho gaya. durga daas se mainne poochha. lekin usane kaha usakee rihaish ka ilm bade afasaron ke siva kisee ko nahin. dar-asl vo sarakaar ka raaz hai, kisee ko bataaya nahin ja sakata. lekin mainne tay kar liya tha ki main use dhoondh kar dam loonga. mainne shaahee tah-khaanon kee talaashee karava dee thee aur vo khandar bilkul veeraan pade the. ek din jaise kisee gaibee tarageeb se main udhar ja nikala. vaheen veeraan aur daraavane tah-khaanon mein se mujhe un tamaam khufiya jagahon ka pata chal gaya, jahaan anjuman ke marakaz the. mujhe poora yaqeen tha ki indranaath kisee doosare giroh ko murattab karane mein munhamik hoga aur isase pahale ki vo apane iraade mein kaamayaab ho, main use usake kaifar-e-kiradaar ko pahuncha dena chaahata tha.
kaee jagahon kee talaash ke baad main ek din usee maqaam par pahuncha, jahaan hamaaree kaar ruk gaee thee. vahaan bagair ruke main chotee par pahunch gaya. pahunch to gaya lekin kuchh lamhon ke lie main hairaan sa khada rah gaya, kyonki saamane phir ghaatee thee. us vaqt mujhe ek baar phir yaqeen ho gaya ki indranaath ne jaan-boojh kar kaar rok dee thee kyonki aage to khaufanaak ghaatee thee. yaqeenan vo kaar ko isamen na giraata. chup-chaap vahaan khada main tamaam vaaqiyaat par gaur karata raha aur intiqaam ka josh jaise mere seene mein dugane josh se uth kar khud mujhako hee jalaane laga. tabhee saamane kee chadhaee par mein ne kisee insaanee shakl ko chadhate dekha. shaam ke dhundalake mein mujhe vo indranaath hee maaloom hua. tab bijalee kee see tezee ke saath main neeche utara. us vaqt kaheen zara bhee paanv phisal jaata to haddee-haddee choor ho jaatee. lekin mujhe kisee baat ka khyaal na tha, bas bhaaga chala jaata tha.
indranaath doosaree taraf chotee ke qareeb pahunch gaya. main bhee oopar chadhane laga. jald hee meree taangen phoolane lageen. aankhon ke aage andhera chhaane laga. lekin main chadhata chala gaya. isase pahale ki main indranaath par vaar karata pistaul kee sard naalee meree kanapatee ke qareeb thee aur meree klaee usake panje mein aur main hairaan aur bhaunchakka khada tha. kyonki ye indranaath na tha. balki ek khoobasoorat haseena thee jisane mardon ka libaas pahan rakha tha aur usake baal agarache bahut lambe na the lekin be-paravaee se usake kandhon par lahara rahe the. shaayad ye indranaath kee bahan thee. kuchh lamha mein mabahoot sa usake chehare kee taraf dekhata raha phir mainne hakalaate hue kaha, lekin… main… to indr…
usne baat kaat kar kaha, bhool gae raghoo! mujhe itanee jaldee bhool gae. abhee to mujhe anjuman ke usool ke mutaabiq tumhen is pistaul ka nishaana banaana hai. aur vo deevaanon kee tarah hansee. sard see ek lahar mere jism mein daud gaee. lekin mainne apana tamaam hausala ikattha karake kaha, indranaath…
mera naam indra hai usane kaha. mainne kaha, indra! main khud isee iraade se aaya tha. tumane pulis kee jaasoos ban kar itane be-gunaahon par jo zulm kiya hai usaka badala lene hee mein aaya tha.
police kee jaasoos. vo hansee, raghoo apane gunaah ko chhipaane ke lie jhoot kyon bolate ho.
lekin tumhen police ne giraftaar kyon nahin kiya.
vo kar hee nahin sakee. vo to indranaath kee talaash mein hai. lekin main to indra hoon. haan meree giraftaaree ke lie inaam abhee tak mushtahar hai.
meree aankhon ke aage andhera chha gaya aur us deevaane amaachand kee tasveer ek baar meree aankhon mein ghoom gaee. indra ne phir hans kar kaha, raghoo tum buzadil nahin. main hee buzadil hoon. anjuman ke usoolon ke mutaabiq mujhe tumhen fauran maut ke ghaat utaar dena chaahie tha. lekin main aisa na kar sakee. main nahin jaanatee raghoo lekin ab bhee mein aisa nahin kar sakatee. anjuman ke usool ke khilaaf main bhee chalee hoon aur isakee saza maut hai. tum mujhe qatl karane aae the. lo, qatl karo. aur usane pistol mere saamane phenk diya. main khaamosh, saakin, mabahoot khada raha.
usne pistol utha liya, tum mujh par faayar nahin kar sakate raghoo. lekin anjuman ke usool mujhe maarane ya mar jaane par majaboor karte hain. tumheen main na maar sakoongee. khud maroongee aur isase pahale ki main use rokata, usakee naash khoon mein lat-pat dharatee mein padee tadap rahee thee aur pistaul usake haath se door ja padee thee.
aah aanand! vo mujhase mohabbat karatee thee.
raghoo